Make Me Broken

Often times we just want to sail through life.  We want things to be perfect and easy and clean.

Here's the problem with that.  Life will never be that way.

A friend posted this on FB this morning from Sarah Young: "Give up the illusion that you deserve a problem-free life.  Part of you is still hungering for the resolution of all difficulties.  This is a false hope!  As I told my disciples, in the world you will have trouble.  Link your hope not to problem solving in this life, but to the promise of an eternity of problem-free life in heaven.  Instead of seeking perfection in this fallen world, pour your energy into seeking Me:  the Perfect One."

Reading that was one of those moments when you realize God is speaking directly to your heart.  There is no other way to explain it, except I felt like it was directed right to me.  I can read things and it has no effect on me.  This was not one of those times.  I have let fear captivate me during our adoption process lately.  I decided to fast and pray and during that time I felt such peace.  But, you know what happened after that?  I went back to my "normal" life and allowed the doubt, fear, and confusion set in again.  I questioned God on why He would lead us down this path again only to have struggles during the process.

Let's think about this.  Where did God say this process would be perfect?  He didn't.  He just asked me to follow Him.  Trust Him.  Be obedient.

And, then I read these verses tied to the passage above written by Sarah Young.  Psalm 112: 4-7 says this:

Psalm 112:4-7

New International Version (NIV)

4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright,
    for those who are gracious and compassionate and righteous.
5 Good will come to those who are generous and lend freely,
    who conduct their affairs with justice.

6 Surely the righteous will never be shaken;
    they will be remembered forever.
7 They will have no fear of bad news;
    their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.

Today, I'm going to trust in the One who pursued me to be His child.

And, here's a song by Sidewalk Prophets that someone brought up on the post on FB, Keep Making Me.  I haven't listened to this album in a long time, but it's perfect.  The first words are Make me broken.  Your broken may not be my broken, but we are all there.  Broken.  In need of God's love and forgiveness and redemption.