Always Something Better

We have been in one of the hardest parts of adoption for a few weeks and it's not easy (waiting for a referral).  With all the paper work for the adoption done, we feel like we are doing nothing to move the process along (which we have no control over anyway, but it at least felt like we were "doing" something).  In the meantime we are still filling out paperwork for a couple more grants Sarah found.  I should actually say Sarah is filling them out.  It's almost like doing a term paper.  I was terrible at papers.   We did hear some news on the adoption front that made us (Sarah) worry a little.  Thankfully we know God is in control of it all.  You can always ask us in person if you want to know.

Recently I've been trying to look at myself in a certain area, and wonder if I portray a certain attitude to my children, or others for that matter.  For example.  I play this game on my Ipad called Clash of Clans.  This game is awesome, unless you ask my wife, or the wives of my two friends who play also.  Basically you have village that you build up troops, and your defense, and go raid other villages online to gain loot for upgrades. It is, really, a never ending task since all upgrades take real life days.  You also get to be in a clan with others around the world and chat.  Fun, right Jill?  Every time Judah comes over and looks at my village, he tells me I need to upgrade something, like it's not good enough.  I actually thought I was doing pretty well.:)  I guess not to him.  This past Saturday we had a boys day out to Monster Jam.  It was really cool, and I know both of the boys had fun.  But, as we were walking in the skywalk back to the car, Judah pipes up and says, "I can't believe I have to wait a whole year to see it again."  No, "That was awesome, I loved that monster truck flipping over." Or "Mohawk Warrior was my favorite."  The first thing was some kind of complaint.  He seems to do the same when Sarah cooks a supper he likes, but it wasn't exactly what he wanted.   After observing this for a little while, that's when I started looking at myself, wondering if he got this complaining, or this mentality of "things need to be better" from observing me?  You would think a sweet little boy from Ethiopia who didn't have some of these things would be satisfied with what he has.  I then look at our other children, and soon realize they are the same.  And how did they get that way?  That's right. Me.  See, even though I've changed the way I think about a lot of things in the past two years, I think a lot of the "damage" was done years ago.  Now I think it will take years to try and reverse it.  I know a lot of it will come with age, as the kids grow older, more mature.  I already see it with Taylor and the way she is starting to look at things.  As long as I can continue to keep myself in check (which is only done through the help of my wife) and show the kids by example, I think things will be okay. :)

We are still trying to think of a fun little giveaway for this next month.  We have a couple of ideas, so stay tuned!

Really though, this Clash of Clans game is awesome.  If you get a chance to play it, come check out our clan(Jesse Pinkman),and tell them RainbowFire489 sent ya over.:)





Here's a little taste of all the fun.

Rock on

J